Lately I felt very confuse about my future....
I dunno which way to go...
And dunno shud listen to which suggestion...
There're some choices here for me...as shown below:
1)Study form 6 in SMI and go penang USM after that
-My uncle's suggestion
-Save money
-But waste time
-Stay in this house
-But Pn.Zumeme always tell us shouldn't study form6
-Control by parents and sister
-Everyone will agree that I follow this plan
2)Study UTAR until finish degree
-Will rent a house in Kampar
-Hav freedom
-But quite expensive
-All ppl will blame me cuz waste my dad's money
-Quite dangerous cuz Kampar got a lot Indon ppl
-Sonkoi will not let me cuz dangerous to stay there
-But parents and sister will agree
3)Go to Ireland earn money for 2 years then go Australia study
-I can study in Aus with my own money
-Can be with Sonkoi,and earn double money cuz 2 person
-His sisters will take k me cuz me n him will live with them
-We will b legal worker cuz can get student visa
-Will be rich soon,cuz we got car n house,we no need pay for anythin
-I can help my mom to pay her house loan
-If I can afford to pay house loan,she can back Msia
-No need to rely on anyone else to pay for my studies
-But this plan,parents,relatives and sister wont agree
Actually I think 3rd plan is the best plan...cuz not everyone can work in Europe unless u got fren or family over there and they can help u to make Visa,and can find a good job for u...Sonkoi already asked his sisters,and I met his sisters before...all his sisters are very friendly and they said willing to help me to work in Ireland...And I'll be a waitress there,juz serve the customers and pick up the phone sometimes...I am not afraid it's hard...Because if I dunno how to do something,I will ask ppl and learn although ppl scold me or what...I never worry about that because I juz wanna earn some money...I dun wanna rely on my family anymore...They're already so poor...Then,those waitress job in Ireland,at least 250 Euro per week(food provided)...means 1000Euro per month...1000 Euro = RM5000...I pay RM1000 for my mom's house loan every month,I still got RM4000...I wan my mom to come back Msia and take care my 2 sisters...I dun wan my sisters live under other ppl's roof...and I dun wan them to be naughty...thats why need my mom come back to take care and control them...
Okay lets count,based on Sonkoi's information...
When I first get there,I'll need to hav 1800Euro to make student Visa...
Juz to confirm that I'm not illegal worker...and safe...
This 1800Euro,his sisters will lend me first...
And if I hav financial problem,Sonkoi will help...
Then,I'll live with Sonkoi in one room(dun think other thing ya...LOL)
And the room is 300 Euro per month...
Me give 150 and Sonkoi give 150...hehe...save money right??
And that house got 3 rooms...One if for us...One is for 4th sis...
And the last one is for 3rd sis...
This house one month rent 900Euro...
Thats why each room need 300 Euro...
Then,we got house,and Sonkoi's sisters already got car there...
So house and transport problem already settle...
Then,how about job...??
Sonkoi's sisters will also help me to find job...
Cuz they hav lottssssss of frens there in Ireland...
So can easily find a good job for me...
And if possible,can work together with Sonkoi... =)
Furthermore,if I work for few months already I hav experience...
Then I can find a higher salary job...
We actually no need to use many money...
Cuz those things there are really cheap for example...
Those Nike t-shirt there jus 4-6 Euro each...
And those food,for example a chicken...only 5 Euro...
So...we can save a lot of money for my studies... ^^
Ok,lets say 1000Euro per month...x 12 = 12000 Euro
12000 Euro minus (rent house+student visa)
12000 - (150 x 12) - (1800)
12000 - 1800 - 1800 = 8400 Euro
Every month give my mom house loan 1000RM...
RM1000 x 12 = RM12000/5 = 2400Euro
8400 Euro - 2400 Euro = 6000 Euro
Lets say makan and use those thing 2000 Euro la...
(If I jimat a bit...)
6000 - 2000 = 4000...
4000 Euro x 5 = RM20000...
Saya ada 20k,Sonkoi ada 20k...
Together is 40k per year we can save...
And I havent count IF I GOT HIGHER SALARY ooo...haha...
LOZZZZZZZZZZ of money...
But this is just a dream,I wish my family will support me...
And respect my decision...
I will try to discuss with them...
But I kno they'll sure disagree...
I've already decided...If they dun let me to go Ireland...
I'll just book a flight and fly to Ireland...
When I got money and get a degree in Aus...
They will diam diam...I can use money to close their mouth...
I hav good reasons...
1) I wan my mom to back MSIA...
2)I wanna be resposible for my own studies...
3)I wanna be with Sonkoi
4)I dun wanna stay at home like a bug,always eat their money
5)I wanna study overseas
6)I wanna be free
7)I wanna try to depends on myself
8)I wanna challenge myself
After I saw one of my fren's post...I hav more confident...
She said one pro person said :
"因为我肯拼所以被肯定，我所付出的一切都是值得的"
听了这番话令到我更肯定我要做的事...
只要我肯拼,我肯付出,我肯放下现在所有的一切...
我相信不久的将来他们一定会认同我...
虽然现在他们不明白我,不赞成我...
但是我会慢慢证明给他们看我的决定是对的...
到底是人定胜天,还是命运早有安排??
就要看我自己的毅力了...
I will prove to them that my decision is correct...
Not to "throw cold water" ah..
ReplyDeletebut my kind of personality always think of bad things wan. =D~
I'm happy that you and son koi planed out so many things so clearly. Really impressed.
BUT.. there is always but..
things will sound very wonderful now, everything plan, go according to plan, everything will be good. We keep telling ourselves, hard hard lo, i can handle hard. but sometimes, the hard, is much much much harder than we imagine.
We will never know what will happen in the future, we can predict it, but, things will always turn out bad for sure. For sure bad things will happen. Everything will seem to fit now, but when it really come and bad and unexpected things happen, can u guys handle it for sure?
Working and studying sound like fantastic idea. I not say u cannot do it, a lot of people can do it. But if u want to work, what bout ur studies, sumo study overseas is very stressful, u will have a lot of a lot of stress on ur shoulder, and summo if u add work in it, its really really not easy to handle.
For me, for me la... i study, is already a very very very stressful thing. One thing at a time for me is already enuf, if u ask me to study and work, i dun think i can do it. After class, i will be very tired, and when comes to test, its even more stressful. and u have to work summo.
If you sure u can handle it, I sure support ur dreams. but dun let the clarity or the high detail of ur planing make u over confident, cz we can plan as much as we want, but always unknown things will happen, issues will crop up, arguements and everything..
all i say is, to do it, u must really really be prepared, be tough, and know that no matter what u can really handle it. If you know you can, GO DO IT. I will support, but really really think hard hard.. dun let emotions affect u... OKAY?
i learn all this after my form 5. After my form 5, i also think very much like you, i think i'm very mature, i think that hard hard la, i can tahan then can edi. But then i realise, willpower is really not enough, you must really have mental and physical strength to handle everything... and i realise, last time, all my thinking is immature, all my thinking is just like so easy, now i realise, life is not as easy as we want to plan, problems will always come up, but we must be able to handle it.
ALL THE BEST TO YOU!!!
I know it's quite hard to study when need to work...but I will work as full time in Ireland...after 2 years only go to Australia for my studies...cuz my mom asked me to try to find some cheap college in Aus...and if I can get a degree in Aus,I can easily apply for Aus PR...one of my sister's fren also lidet,he is not a rich person,work+study in Aus...and he says that Aus college is quite cheap(cheap is most important haha)... =D
ReplyDeleteActually I also afraid that something bad ,unexpected will happen...This is included in my consideration...But because Im not alone...(got him,and his sisters)
But anyway,I will think think...
Actually I juz worry about my family...They will always worry about me n all that cuz I suddenly go so far...And I will hurt them if I suddenly go there w/o their permission...So I think I must discuss with them first...
March,me n my sis will travel to Aus to visit my mom...I will seize the chance to discuss with my mom...and also I will tell her every point and those things...such as advantages and disadvantages clearly...
Good! ALL THE BEST! =D~ HEHE!!
ReplyDeletejust some advices to you.
ReplyDeleteu have to think deeply bout the choice you chose.
pls, the thirs plan apparently looks attractive but who knows what will happen there?
furthermore you are depending on others not ur own family.
dear, try to discuss it with ur family or any one u can believe in. everything. wait till the result comes out then only deicde.
perhaps you can start apply scholar study program now.all the best.=)