Credit to Ryan again... Thanks Ryan...

Everytime when I'm emo, I'll watch Ryan's videos.

Or Jumba's or Dominic's.

Their videos can always make me smile.

It's important for me to have something like those videos, that can cheer me up whenever I feel sad.

So I really really wish to thank all of them.

Everyone will have ups and downs in their lives.

It's important to not let the ''downs'' defeat you.

The YTF production videos might seem silly/pointless for some people.

But I personally think that they're actually doing something very meaningful.

Seriously nowadays, what people missing most are laughter.

Stressed out lives often take laughter away from us. Even our smiles.

Overall, keep it up YTF!

The whole world needs you guys!

1st day of college

Last night I can't sleep well cuz I was quite nervous.

It's a strange feeling I felt last night.

For me, today is a very special day. 

It's not like any other 1st day of school anymore.

I delayed this day for 2 and a half years.

Finally, I came back to studies.

A mixture of feelings of anxious, nervous, worries, a little happy, a little proud , but shy the same time , relieve, and all different kinds of feelings come together at once.

So today morning I went college a little earlier.

I hope to be well-prepared but there's a lot of students that hadn't even pay the fees yet. So due to that, our class started late. ( Induction day )

I was too serious ( or maybe nervous ) I guess. 

I was wondering why the counsellors always look at me with that ''why are you so serious?? have fun lah !this is college, not primary school!'' kinda eyes.

It's just sooooooo different from what I expected.

Other students ( except new students ) were sooooo happy ALL the time.

They looked sooooo hyper ALL day.

A lot of the seniors gathered in front of our classroom during their free time.

They looked much more excited than the new students.

Club committees are quite friendly too. 
They seems to be very eager to recruit new members.
Some of them even made power point clips to promote their clubs.

What I like most is our coordinator Mr.Choo.
He's a friendly and funny guy, around 30+, and a little girlish too.

He told us that we need to be active in Facebook.
Because a lot of notifications and informations will be post on FB.
So we need to on-line 4 times a day ( he said ).
 Before he left class, he said college life is very precious.
Play as much as we can but also study as much as we can during study time.
Also enjoy our college life as it will be full of fun and joy.
( I heard some guys asking him to go clubbing at night )
( Also some guys asking him to go yumcha, as a friend, not a lecturer )

Another thing, our counsellors.
I think all counsellors are male?
Cause I hadn't seen any female behind the counter.
Anyway, the point here is:
A few counsellors are very handsome.
=D

There's a lot of pretty girls and handsome guys in college though.

The other special thing that I want to mention is that,
I am the eldest among my classmates.
There's only 2 persons are born from 1992. 
The other guy called Justin, he's definitely younger since I'm January.
Some of our seniors came to chat with us too.
Unfortunately, they're same age with me but they're going to graduate soon.

Anyhow, I'll get along great with those ''didi'' and ''meimei''.
Together with them I'll look younger too? Maybe?
o.O

Overall I hope I can adapt to my new college life.

Econs

I'm reading this book . 

This is a book that inspires people to get an idea how to invest and what to invest. And what we have to bear in mind while doing investments.

But seriously, it's kind of hard for me to accept and try to understand some of the principles Robert Kiyosaki wrote in his book. 

According to the book, it says we have to admit that money can alter everything in our life.

We have to think that money is very very important to us.

We don't wanna work for money.

We wan't money to work for us.

How can money work for us?

Based on his theory, basically, he's saying that in order for money to work for us, we need to have capital. By doing good investments, money will grow from a small amount to big amount. That's how money actually ''work'' for us.

I'd just finished reading page 42 though.

I'll share more about it after I finished reading the whole book.

I'm kind of interested to economic and finance nowadays.

Maybe because I'm still keeping some Euros, so I'll check currency converter everyday. Almost every news about the European Sovereign Debt Crisis.

I tried to understand about the cause of economic crisis.

There're a lot of terms.

Wealth disparity, unemployment, property bubble, inflation, currency devaluation, mortgage crisis, floating exchange rate, fixed exchange rate,

how each and every terms affect a country's economy.

In Malaysia, we're counting on half-fixed exchange rate.

When our currency devalue, inflation happens first, government banks will sell Ringgit to other countries such as the IMF( International Monetary Fund).

After they sold some Ringgit, the needs of Ringgit in market will rise.

Then, Ringgit will back to it's normal value again.

(I don't know if I'm right here, it's what I got after I read some articles online)

(Correct me if I'm wrong)

Sucks in driving

I kind of hate driving actually.

Everything was fine when I was taking the test and all.

For the 2 times of my driving tests, I passed with very good results.

Never failed.

But not when I drive when fetching other people.

I kind of nervous and I always can't feel the steering.

Like just now when I fetch my sister back to her house.

I didn't notice the tyres are not straight when I reverse out of the house.

That caused me to almost crash everything including the Proton outside and our house's pillar.

I can't think of anything when someone was shouting behind and asking me to do this and that.

Nvm, I'm going to drive very often after college starts.

Shout please, I don't mind. 

If car accident then let it be.

Nothing I can do about it. I'm just born to be noob in driving.

Hope my driving skills will improve.

=(

What awaits ME

I'll start going to college on 17th this month.

I showed up at college a few times to settle everything 

including my registration and all.

I asked them for an accurate timetable for my course,

And also their college tee ( uniform ) this and that.

But they just told me to wait at home.

Some more, I'm still not confirm what time I need to go college at 17th.

Because I need to arrange transport.

SOOOOOOOOOOO INCONVENIENT!

I like everything to be settle earlier. Not last minute.

After course started I'll be busy.

Then Martin is going to Japan on Nov for 3 months,

because their company has factory in Japan so he can go over to learn.

We can hardly meet then.

But guess I won't have much time to be miserable and missing him.

Everyone except me seems extremely busy now.

My mom is getting a raise of salary next month. Not a promotion though.

My sisters are having their final exams next month.

Their daddy works 7 days a week.

My daddy are working as contractor, super busy all the time.

Martin will go to Japan soon.

My elder sister will leave Msia on Nov.

Hmm... what awaits me then?

My big strawBELLY

I'm still gaining weight after I came back from Ireland.

That's scary. I'm 50KG++ now.

When I was in Ireland, I don't really care about my weight.

But after I came back, my mom criticise a lot about my body shape so I think I have to do something about it.

Although I look skinny but I have a HUGE belly.

It looks like I have 2 months baby. Believe me. It's true.

So I don't have the nice ''S'' shape.

Some more, my thighs are quite fat as well until I can feel it tremble when I walk/run.

So I bought a hola-hoop and do exercise everyday in the afternoon.

Hope I can get rid of my nicknames at home.

Btw, the nicknames are Fei Poh/ Fei Fei/ Fei Zhu/Zhu Zhu.

WTH, 50KG++ only, also call me Fei Poh.

But I'm the fattest among my siblings. OKAY.

I dread of it every month

So I am sick today.

Forget about Justin Bieber's advertisement, just for fun.

Overall I am a healthy person.

But there're a few things that I dread the most.

1--period pain

2--period pain

3--period pain

So today I woke up and went behind for my brunch.

I can't even finish the rice, and I went home.

The pain just suddenly struck through my stomach while I was eating.

Anyway, I went home and started to sweat.

So painful until I have to swallow a Panadol ( I hate Panadol).

Tried to sleep but failed. 

( Cuz I know in order to cure I have to take a nap)

And after 2 hours of struggle, I'd throw up into the sink.

Then I felt a little dizzy.

I fell on the couch and slept for 15 minutes before I could clean up the mess.

That 15 minutes made all the difference.

At least I didn't feel pain anymore after I woke up.

I don't understand why I have to sleep everytime I have period pain.

The pain just won't go away no matter what I do but sleep.

Even if I lie on the couch and pretend to be asleep it won't have any effect.

Last time I always ponteng because of it.

Even I went to school, I will have to go home.

A lot of my friends know I have this symptoms.

Once I vomit at tuition centre because of the pain too.

I asked my mother, my sisters and a lot of girls.

But there's no one that will have period pain like mine.

It's a tragic that I have to suffer like this every month.

Sad case.

Good to be HOME.

I went to the show yesterday with my best friend Jan.

Overall the show was amazing, Ryan was cute, the host prepared some Msian food for him. Nasi lemak, roti canai and cha kuei tiao, he like the kuei tiao most cuz it's not spicy. But I like the durian part. Haha. He can't stand the smell of it but he did tried a bit.

He's sooooooooooo cute....lol...

Everyone screamed and shouted so loud, some get too excited including my friend Jan, she shed some tears too. ( I dunno why cuz I didn't, lol)

I'm really, kind of scared of KL.

The buildings, the cars, the people. I just felt a little stress when I was there. I guess I don't like to be in a big city.

Too many cars, the weather's too hot, polluted air, things are expensive, too many mosquitoes, very noisy all the time, can't even sleep well at night. 

Last night I was mad. When the weather gets too hot, 
you wanna open the window,but mosquitoes will come in so you can't open it; you gotta switch on the air-con then. 
When the air-con is on, I can't sleep well cuz it's dry and my nose will start to feel itchy and wanna sneeze all the time. 
So I turned off the air-con, but I got flu already because I slept with air-con for the past 2 nights. 
So flu+ hot weather+can't open window. 
Then when I finally fell asleep, a mosquito bit my eye lid. 
Very, very unfortunate, 
flu + hot + mosquitoes. My arm, my neck got bitten as well. 
Suffered from 11pm til 4am only then I fell asleep.
Nightmares too.

When I reached home this morning I said to myself :''FINALLY. It's sooooo good to be home.'' 

When I got flu, I have Pei Pa Gou inside the cupboard
( Chinese herb med). 

When there's a lot of mosquitoes, I have errr 
( actually I seldom see mosquito at home lol, once in a while have 1 or 2 la) 

When I feel hot and wanna open the window, I can.
(because all our windows upstairs have shields that prevent mosquitoes from coming in)

I won't have nightmares.
(cause I feel safe and I can always sleep well at home)

Luckily I don't have to leave home to pursue my studies.
UEL external 3+0 degree is in Ipoh, so, I'll be grateful... =D