We can't restart....

One thing I hate about life is we can't start again...
Im not trying to act EMO but it's what I feel from the btm of my heart now...
I actually would like to restart everything in my life...
I used to be very careful when choosing...
But I realized that it's useless for me...I always regret for what I've chosen...

My mind is as crazy as a spoilt pc...
Although I keep refreshing my thoughts...But still...I dunno what I really want...
Ppl always says THINK AGAIN...
But why we need to think again??
Time changes everything...Time can destroys everything...
It can also destroys the decision that u made from thinking again and again...
Think again is a waste of time FOR ME...
When time passes,I suddenly realize what I've chosen is wrong...
I always being unsatisfy for what I chose...
And when I hav the chance to re-choose,I will also regret to choose again...
It's so complicating...

I'm so blur now,I can't even describe my feelings by words...
Mayb that's life...(=..=)"lll

Naughty babies...

Equation of babies

Baby=money+time+ma fan
Baby x 2 ={money+time+ma fan} x 2

I realized that my sister's mood always changes and influenced by her sons...
Taking k of babies is not that easy tho...
When her sons are reli annoying...she'll give out that face...face like this>>>(o..O)
When her sons are reli cute she'll give out another face>>>(=..=)

Yesterday we went to McD...
When ppl saw two of them...They'll beribisik-bisik about them...
Then,give a big smile pulak...
The main point is leng chai=more benefit...
I kno why my sister seldom smack them...
That's because they're toooooooo cute...Too cute to smack...LOL!

Last night is the first night I dreamt of Avi n Vini...
Also is the first time I heard Vini call me "YiYi"...
But in real life he never kno how to say YiYi...
He only kno how to use rotan to whack me...T.T...
I wonder why they're so strong...is it because of Enfagrow A+?

When I ask them to sayang sayang me...
They'll probably just walk away and act like they're deaf no matter how hard I beg them...
But when their mom and dad ask them just once...
They'll flirt and act cute in front of them...LOL...so damm funny...
Whoever got child at home dun let them drink expensive milk like Enfagrow...
That will make the kids more naughty...
At least,thats the only reason I can think of...

搬家...

家家有本难念的经...家里的事真的很烦...
从以前小的时候开始就很想离开家...到外面去...自己一个人生活...
听到父母吵架...就会很担心...很不开心...很想插嘴骂回他们...
听到妹妹的哭声...就会很想打她...很想骂她...
被妹妹抢东西了...就会很生气...觉得她很讨人厌...
终于...有一天我听见父母吵架了...我骂回他了...心跳很快...很冲动...很爽快啊!
另外一天...我竟然拍桌子了...丢电脑的MOUSE了...很有面子了啊??
为什么别人的家好好的...就我的家问题多多呢??
我的朋友...很多都为学业,为爱情,友情而烦恼...但是我是为家而烦恼...
我的家破裂了...搞到四分五裂了...这个星期我搬家了...现在和姐姐住...

幸福美满的家庭...对我来说是多么的遥远...
离开时...我很潇洒...妹妹问:"姐,你几时回家?"....我真的很想哭...
我不敢说:"我永远都不回来了..."...我随便用一个借口来应付她...
如果有得选...谁想离开家人呢??为什么以前我一直想离开呢???
如果有得选...我还想听听她的哭声...为什么以前不是这样想呢???
到今时今日...我终于领悟到了...

我拿了家里的锁匙...因为我相信有一天我会回家的...
那里才是我的家...家里还有和我一起长大,同母异父的妹妹...
我希望看到我的BLOG的人都会珍惜自己所拥有的家庭...
最重要的就是记住...以后要好好的处理婚姻...
因为一个家的破裂...每每就是因为父母的婚姻不美满而造成的...