Superb Multimedia

I kinda like my current working place.

Superb Multimedia, at Ipoh.

So I worked for HP company as a promoter.

I went to work in PIKOM PC fair last month.

My manager asked me to work part-time for every Friday,

and Saturday at a shop called Superb.

I went to work on 1st of December.

There's nothing much for me to do because I'm just a promoter,

and there're around 9-10 employees inside the shop itself.

Few are technicians that work on the 1st floor

and others are working on ground floor.

Although they did not talk to me often but they will let me to help on certain matter.
I successfully repaired an Epson printer that day.
And they thought me to fix the processor, graphic card, and RAM into motherboard.
There's so much to learn from them.
Glad to know that a part-time job has it's benefits to me.
=) 

朋友，我永远祝福你。

不要问，不要说，一切尽在不言中。

替你开心之余，突然想起这首歌。

张学友--祝福。

伤离别，离别虽然在眼前，说再见，再见不会太遥远。

若有缘，有缘就能期待明天。

你和我重逢在灿烂的季节。

我只能默默的祝福你。    =)

SUPER BUSY!!!

Actually I'm so outta ma mind at the moment.

I'm going crazy because of lack of sleep.

So many tasks awaiting me such as assignments.

We have 3 assignments to do at the moment.

And the deadline will be on the end of this month.

It's killing me!!!

But, I actually feel happy to go to college and accept all tasks.

I'm now a club's PR committee, Student council committee.

And on the 20th of October I'm going to host an Orientation Event.

So, it's actually a LOTTT of things to do.

Some more, I've just adopted a new puppy named Coffee.

She's a mixed breed dog.

But she's kinda playful and always needs our love and care.

There's something else too.

I'm planning to get a car.

I'm planning to get a part time job.

I'm planning to learn a new language.

But still no time for these things yet.HAIH.....

Credit to Ryan again... Thanks Ryan...

Everytime when I'm emo, I'll watch Ryan's videos.

Or Jumba's or Dominic's.

Their videos can always make me smile.

It's important for me to have something like those videos, that can cheer me up whenever I feel sad.

So I really really wish to thank all of them.

Everyone will have ups and downs in their lives.

It's important to not let the ''downs'' defeat you.

The YTF production videos might seem silly/pointless for some people.

But I personally think that they're actually doing something very meaningful.

Seriously nowadays, what people missing most are laughter.

Stressed out lives often take laughter away from us. Even our smiles.

Overall, keep it up YTF!

The whole world needs you guys!

1st day of college

Last night I can't sleep well cuz I was quite nervous.

It's a strange feeling I felt last night.

For me, today is a very special day. 

It's not like any other 1st day of school anymore.

I delayed this day for 2 and a half years.

Finally, I came back to studies.

A mixture of feelings of anxious, nervous, worries, a little happy, a little proud , but shy the same time , relieve, and all different kinds of feelings come together at once.

So today morning I went college a little earlier.

I hope to be well-prepared but there's a lot of students that hadn't even pay the fees yet. So due to that, our class started late. ( Induction day )

I was too serious ( or maybe nervous ) I guess. 

I was wondering why the counsellors always look at me with that ''why are you so serious?? have fun lah !this is college, not primary school!'' kinda eyes.

It's just sooooooo different from what I expected.

Other students ( except new students ) were sooooo happy ALL the time.

They looked sooooo hyper ALL day.

A lot of the seniors gathered in front of our classroom during their free time.

They looked much more excited than the new students.

Club committees are quite friendly too. 
They seems to be very eager to recruit new members.
Some of them even made power point clips to promote their clubs.

What I like most is our coordinator Mr.Choo.
He's a friendly and funny guy, around 30+, and a little girlish too.

He told us that we need to be active in Facebook.
Because a lot of notifications and informations will be post on FB.
So we need to on-line 4 times a day ( he said ).
 Before he left class, he said college life is very precious.
Play as much as we can but also study as much as we can during study time.
Also enjoy our college life as it will be full of fun and joy.
( I heard some guys asking him to go clubbing at night )
( Also some guys asking him to go yumcha, as a friend, not a lecturer )

Another thing, our counsellors.
I think all counsellors are male?
Cause I hadn't seen any female behind the counter.
Anyway, the point here is:
A few counsellors are very handsome.
=D

There's a lot of pretty girls and handsome guys in college though.

The other special thing that I want to mention is that,
I am the eldest among my classmates.
There's only 2 persons are born from 1992. 
The other guy called Justin, he's definitely younger since I'm January.
Some of our seniors came to chat with us too.
Unfortunately, they're same age with me but they're going to graduate soon.

Anyhow, I'll get along great with those ''didi'' and ''meimei''.
Together with them I'll look younger too? Maybe?
o.O

Overall I hope I can adapt to my new college life.

Econs

I'm reading this book . 

This is a book that inspires people to get an idea how to invest and what to invest. And what we have to bear in mind while doing investments.

But seriously, it's kind of hard for me to accept and try to understand some of the principles Robert Kiyosaki wrote in his book. 

According to the book, it says we have to admit that money can alter everything in our life.

We have to think that money is very very important to us.

We don't wanna work for money.

We wan't money to work for us.

How can money work for us?

Based on his theory, basically, he's saying that in order for money to work for us, we need to have capital. By doing good investments, money will grow from a small amount to big amount. That's how money actually ''work'' for us.

I'd just finished reading page 42 though.

I'll share more about it after I finished reading the whole book.

I'm kind of interested to economic and finance nowadays.

Maybe because I'm still keeping some Euros, so I'll check currency converter everyday. Almost every news about the European Sovereign Debt Crisis.

I tried to understand about the cause of economic crisis.

There're a lot of terms.

Wealth disparity, unemployment, property bubble, inflation, currency devaluation, mortgage crisis, floating exchange rate, fixed exchange rate,

how each and every terms affect a country's economy.

In Malaysia, we're counting on half-fixed exchange rate.

When our currency devalue, inflation happens first, government banks will sell Ringgit to other countries such as the IMF( International Monetary Fund).

After they sold some Ringgit, the needs of Ringgit in market will rise.

Then, Ringgit will back to it's normal value again.

(I don't know if I'm right here, it's what I got after I read some articles online)

(Correct me if I'm wrong)

Sucks in driving

I kind of hate driving actually.

Everything was fine when I was taking the test and all.

For the 2 times of my driving tests, I passed with very good results.

Never failed.

But not when I drive when fetching other people.

I kind of nervous and I always can't feel the steering.

Like just now when I fetch my sister back to her house.

I didn't notice the tyres are not straight when I reverse out of the house.

That caused me to almost crash everything including the Proton outside and our house's pillar.

I can't think of anything when someone was shouting behind and asking me to do this and that.

Nvm, I'm going to drive very often after college starts.

Shout please, I don't mind. 

If car accident then let it be.

Nothing I can do about it. I'm just born to be noob in driving.

Hope my driving skills will improve.

=(

What awaits ME

I'll start going to college on 17th this month.

I showed up at college a few times to settle everything 

including my registration and all.

I asked them for an accurate timetable for my course,

And also their college tee ( uniform ) this and that.

But they just told me to wait at home.

Some more, I'm still not confirm what time I need to go college at 17th.

Because I need to arrange transport.

SOOOOOOOOOOO INCONVENIENT!

I like everything to be settle earlier. Not last minute.

After course started I'll be busy.

Then Martin is going to Japan on Nov for 3 months,

because their company has factory in Japan so he can go over to learn.

We can hardly meet then.

But guess I won't have much time to be miserable and missing him.

Everyone except me seems extremely busy now.

My mom is getting a raise of salary next month. Not a promotion though.

My sisters are having their final exams next month.

Their daddy works 7 days a week.

My daddy are working as contractor, super busy all the time.

Martin will go to Japan soon.

My elder sister will leave Msia on Nov.

Hmm... what awaits me then?

My big strawBELLY

I'm still gaining weight after I came back from Ireland.

That's scary. I'm 50KG++ now.

When I was in Ireland, I don't really care about my weight.

But after I came back, my mom criticise a lot about my body shape so I think I have to do something about it.

Although I look skinny but I have a HUGE belly.

It looks like I have 2 months baby. Believe me. It's true.

So I don't have the nice ''S'' shape.

Some more, my thighs are quite fat as well until I can feel it tremble when I walk/run.

So I bought a hola-hoop and do exercise everyday in the afternoon.

Hope I can get rid of my nicknames at home.

Btw, the nicknames are Fei Poh/ Fei Fei/ Fei Zhu/Zhu Zhu.

WTH, 50KG++ only, also call me Fei Poh.

But I'm the fattest among my siblings. OKAY.

I dread of it every month

So I am sick today.

Forget about Justin Bieber's advertisement, just for fun.

Overall I am a healthy person.

But there're a few things that I dread the most.

1--period pain

2--period pain

3--period pain

So today I woke up and went behind for my brunch.

I can't even finish the rice, and I went home.

The pain just suddenly struck through my stomach while I was eating.

Anyway, I went home and started to sweat.

So painful until I have to swallow a Panadol ( I hate Panadol).

Tried to sleep but failed. 

( Cuz I know in order to cure I have to take a nap)

And after 2 hours of struggle, I'd throw up into the sink.

Then I felt a little dizzy.

I fell on the couch and slept for 15 minutes before I could clean up the mess.

That 15 minutes made all the difference.

At least I didn't feel pain anymore after I woke up.

I don't understand why I have to sleep everytime I have period pain.

The pain just won't go away no matter what I do but sleep.

Even if I lie on the couch and pretend to be asleep it won't have any effect.

Last time I always ponteng because of it.

Even I went to school, I will have to go home.

A lot of my friends know I have this symptoms.

Once I vomit at tuition centre because of the pain too.

I asked my mother, my sisters and a lot of girls.

But there's no one that will have period pain like mine.

It's a tragic that I have to suffer like this every month.

Sad case.

Good to be HOME.

I went to the show yesterday with my best friend Jan.

Overall the show was amazing, Ryan was cute, the host prepared some Msian food for him. Nasi lemak, roti canai and cha kuei tiao, he like the kuei tiao most cuz it's not spicy. But I like the durian part. Haha. He can't stand the smell of it but he did tried a bit.

He's sooooooooooo cute....lol...

Everyone screamed and shouted so loud, some get too excited including my friend Jan, she shed some tears too. ( I dunno why cuz I didn't, lol)

I'm really, kind of scared of KL.

The buildings, the cars, the people. I just felt a little stress when I was there. I guess I don't like to be in a big city.

Too many cars, the weather's too hot, polluted air, things are expensive, too many mosquitoes, very noisy all the time, can't even sleep well at night. 

Last night I was mad. When the weather gets too hot, 
you wanna open the window,but mosquitoes will come in so you can't open it; you gotta switch on the air-con then. 
When the air-con is on, I can't sleep well cuz it's dry and my nose will start to feel itchy and wanna sneeze all the time. 
So I turned off the air-con, but I got flu already because I slept with air-con for the past 2 nights. 
So flu+ hot weather+can't open window. 
Then when I finally fell asleep, a mosquito bit my eye lid. 
Very, very unfortunate, 
flu + hot + mosquitoes. My arm, my neck got bitten as well. 
Suffered from 11pm til 4am only then I fell asleep.
Nightmares too.

When I reached home this morning I said to myself :''FINALLY. It's sooooo good to be home.'' 

When I got flu, I have Pei Pa Gou inside the cupboard
( Chinese herb med). 

When there's a lot of mosquitoes, I have errr 
( actually I seldom see mosquito at home lol, once in a while have 1 or 2 la) 

When I feel hot and wanna open the window, I can.
(because all our windows upstairs have shields that prevent mosquitoes from coming in)

I won't have nightmares.
(cause I feel safe and I can always sleep well at home)

Luckily I don't have to leave home to pursue my studies.
UEL external 3+0 degree is in Ipoh, so, I'll be grateful... =D

功名利禄 ( success, fame, benefit and prosperity)

What exactly are we searching for, 

throughout our entire life?

This is a question that keep on haunting me for a long time.

人生几十年光景，我们应该用什么态度去生活？

我们应该追求的又是什么呢？

功名利禄，谁不想要？得到它们之后我们能真正的快乐吗？

而对你来说，快乐的定义，是什么呢？

快乐，对我来说，可能只是最简单的，母亲煮的一餐饭，家人平平安安。

人真的不应该要求太多。

最近觉得有很多朋友开始变了。

他们都渐渐被功名利禄征服，陷入万劫不复的田地。

其实也没有这么夸张啦，就是觉得他们一直不停的追，一直不停的爬，爬来爬去，这一座山是无尽止的。他们只会一生中都在看着山顶，而错过了路边的花草树木。

最重要的，不是去不去到山顶，而是在走往山顶的路上学习到东西。

终生学习，是我做人的态度与坚持。

What's my personality?

Personality.

Personality is the particular combination of emotional, attitudinal, and behavioral response patterns of an individual. Different personality theorists present their own definitions of the word based on their theoretical positions.

Combination of emotions, attitudes and behaviors.

Sometimes I find myself hard to predict. Because I tend to be different person when I be with different people. But deep down inside, my personality is as shit as hell. I am hot temper (but sometimes I can be really patient) , lazy (but can be very hardworking when I wanted so much to finish a certain task) , no manners especially at home ( I can go to toilet w/o closing the door, dig my nose in front of my sisters, scratch my bump in front of my sisters when it gets itchy, show them my belly when I got too full, etc etc).

Seriously, will you do things stated above in front of your siblings? I don't know, when I was a kid, people ask and teach me to be a GIRL as in LADY. But I always feel a small part of my true self, is a BOY as in MAN.

When I was 0 years old to 6, people called me a tofu. Because I always say yes to everything and everyone. I don't even dare to say no to the foods that I can't finish. (GIRL)

When I was standard one, I like to bully an Indian deskmate. Until her mother called my mother, and even complained in school.  (changes of my personality) (BOY)

Standard 2, I mixed with a bunch of bus friends. I fought with some guys sometimes. (BOY)

Standard 5, I became prefect. (GIRL)

Standard 6, I became the HEAD prefect. WTH? (changes of my personality AGAIN) (GIRL)

Who am I? I am the boyish girl, with a lot of different personalities.

So the conclusion is , Pinky doesn't know her true self yet. 

SOOOO SAD. LOL.

Sarah Brightman - Memory

Listening to Sarah Brightman's Memory.

Reminds me of how I got to know each and everyone of my friends.

And be together for, more than 10 years (some of them).

缘分 ( yun fen) which means destiny that ties everyone together.

We might not be the same us anymore but deep down inside, I will remember how we used to play together and grow up together, how we changed from a gang of kids to a gang of adults. 

Never dare to say this to my friends but, I LOVE YOU ALL!

My youngest sister---Elsa

Elsa is my youngest sister, to me, she is a very ''cute'' sister.

So today holiday starts, she forced me to wake up with her, forced me to go breakfast with her, forced me to watch 3 episodes of Vampire Diaries with her, forced me to watch another chinese movie with her, and now she is trying to force me, to watch another chinese movie. (but because I wanna take a break and go online, she is crying now)

She is a very emotional person. She can change from happy face to angry face, in a blink of an eye. LOL. She is very smart, and always can see the things deep inside ppl's hearts. She talks like an adult. She judges things like an adult. I'd never ever feel worry about her as in her homework or exams cause I know she is a very determine person, she always knows what is right for her.  

EXCEPT, her attitude towards ppl. We can say that as ''no manners''. Anyway, it's 15:21 now, she'd force me to do things since 10:00 this morning. So, I'm not going to give in to her , not anymore TODAY. 

Don't know why I blog so often these days. 

Probably because I'm too bored at home, forever alone.

So I went to K-Box with Mok,Phon,Racky and Ray today.

Erm, the most unforgettable moment during the karaoke was when me and Mok sang Aerosmith- I don't wanna miss a thing.

It's unbelievable that I can scream in that kind of rough voice, so ROCK! Screamed like a mad woman in K-Box. Btw, the electricity was down for 10 minutes today, first time for me though. Never thought of K-Box will system down also. It's weird. Suddenly TV and lights went off.

Bought a hair serum in Watsons and a Shiseido night cream in Sasa. OOO... No money ahhh. Used RM100 already,including K-Box. SHYT.

Talkative uncle. DIAM LA.

Why do I need to go for driving test again?

That's because last year, I knew it's time to renew my P license. So I sent my license back to Malaysia by postage and hoped my mom can help me to renew it. And it's gone. I went to Ireland's post office to fill up a form stating that I lost a post. But they replied that they couldn't find the post too. 

So I went for rayuan on jpj.gov.my. Results came out that I don't need to take undang anymore but still need to take driving tests. (parking and drive on the road)

Have to pay RM500++ for those two tests and 10 hours driving lessons. 

So I'm gonna have the test on Thursday and 2mrw I'll have my last driving lesson, with a very talkative uncle.

Btw, I dunno his name after few lessons with him. Bet he dunno my name too. LOL. The reason I wanna talk about him, is because I very very beh tahan him already.

You know we have to concentrate when driving right? Some more I didn't drive for 2 and a half years already. Some more, Simpang Pulai there a lot of cars and lorries. Some more, that road is 80km/h one. Some more, the road sometimes change from 2 laps to 1 lap, sometimes 1 lap to 2 laps. (or line?) But he kept talking shit to me. WTH.

So his stories today was about his job. He said he hate this job because low salary, no free time, even eat also no time, have to fetch the customers everyday from south to north, west to east, very hot weather, very tiring....

He also talked about some of his friends go and marry some Vietnamese girl, 60 years old uncle dunno what is pai seh, go and marry 20+ girl this and that. And say they tak tau malu....

Say about Malay ppl now Ramadhan, this and that. Road blocks here and there cari makan... ( while I was driving, trying to concentrate, and trying all my best to NOT listen to him)

VERY VERY CHEONG HEI ahhhh...

I like CLUBBING

Haha, just saying this for fun only. I was kind of hate clubbing before.

Talked about Muar in my last post, the guy that hosted the trip, loves club music. So I am kind of ''infected''. He likes to drive with insane speed and loves to take over other cars, while listening to club music with loud volume. ( this sentence sounds weird )

So the music he played was Nini Anthem, and Owl City Good Time. It's so funny that we'd even try to follow the moves. 

Back to clubbing part. Friday I went to Euro House for Carmen's birthday party. And Saturday went to Barroom with my sister and her friends. 

I thought I hate clubbing but actually not when I was drunk. HAHAHA. I can't believe it. I DANCED. And even talked to other guys. OMG! There were a few guys that shared the table with us in Barroom. They ordered 2 bottles of MOET Chandon lehhh... (rich guy again) I was kind of drunk by the time I talked to one of them. ARRHHGG. 

By the way, it's a miracle that I didn't throw up,can talk with other people wisely, and can walk with high heels perfectly on our way back. Two towers of Long Island did not defeat me. Just that my ears are a little malfunction when I started to feel dizzy, can't even listen to what my sister said. LOL.

I thought I'm not that kind of girl that likes clubbing, but I am starting to like it. LOLOL. SELF-CONTROL SELF-CONTROL. NAMOAMITOFU!

NONONO MISERY!

Im here again.

I changed into another person.

I realized that being miserable/emo, is so damn tiring. So I try to make myself happy. By watching Ryan Higa ( for example). And try not to think so much.

I got to know some different people by going to KL last week, and also in Barroom, when I went clubbing with my sister.

I got humiliated when I was in Muar last week. Maybe that's only because I am sensitive. I was with another 3 friends from Taylor's College. And they were all rich people la, and we went to dinner with a bunch of rich uncles in a restaurant, about 15 uncles. One of the uncle named Mr.Goh kept asking us about our study plan. Erm, he asked 3 of my friends before he asked me. One said going to UK , another one said going to Bristol, another one said going twinning and all.

Mr.Goh:'' How about u? Going abroad?''
Me:'' Im staying local.''
'' Which uni?''
'' Erm, I don't think you've ever heard about it before. It's called the Olympia College.''
'' Where about?''
'' In Ipoh one, but they have campus in KL also.'' ( I felt my ears and neck are burning, I know he didn't mean to, but I felt ashamed when comparing with the 3 friends above)
'' Where the cert from?''  (Fuck, still wanna ask so many mehhhhh...)
'' Erm, London one.''
'' Which one?''
'' East London.''

Conversation ended with awkwardness filling the air and I felt like crying.

So after a while on our way back to KL, 3 of them were saying how awkward they felt when chatting with those uncles. I know they were just saying this to make me feel better.

I understand that I am so different from 3 of them. It's a privilege to know them and be able to follow them to this wonderful trip to Muar, and be treated like a princess, did not even spend a single penny in those 3 days. It's like a dream to me. I was very very happy. So at last, I successfully made myself forget about the bitterness I felt earlier. It's worth it. I was humiliated, but nvm, I got to know these awesome friends, from a totally different world.

Nothing matters to me now. Yes, I don't have a father that owns lands of palm trees. Yes, I am not a hardworking student that can get scholarship to study abroad. Yes, I have a lower social status. BUT HELL YEAH, I'M ON THE TOP OF THE WORLD! SO WHAT ABOUT MY COLLEGE?

Ryan Higa

Seriously, I like him after I viewed some of his videos in You-tube. He has great sense of humour and very cute too. He looked quite stupid sometimes in his videos,but that doesn't matter cuz I like it.

Check out his ''Daily life of Rustin Hieber'' , ''Forever Alone'', and ''Movies in Minutes Twilight'' , ''MIM Harry Potter'', and ''MIM Titanic'' in You-tube. 100% Laughing Guarantee!

My daily life in 48 Wira Jaya Barat

During morning, breakfast alone.
During afternoon, lunch alone.
During evening, FB alone.
During midnight, FB alone.


FOREVER ALONE!

I thought of getting a job, just behind my house there's a tuition centre. They are employing a part-time tutor and a secretary. But the minimum qualification for both positions are STPM/Diploma. WHAT THE HECK? 


Seriously, forget about it. Guess I'll have to be alone until my course start at September. But I can't survive with just RM100 for a month and half. I hate going to money changer because the currency is at it's lowest point ever in between these 10 years... arrrgghhh...

I did something wrong...

Everyone will make mistakes in their lifes. Sometimes because they are lazy,maybe they are greedy,maybe they are mischievous,there's a lot of reasons. 

I did something bad because of greedy. It's not so serious but I felt regret. I can't sleep well at night because of that. But I can't turn back time. Sometimes we can just let it go,but it will always be a feeling of regret,and guilty deep inside your heart. No matter how hard u try to forget it. 

I belong to myself.

Today I saw my step sister's photo and someone in her Cho's family is proud of her because she won a sport competition.


She got her Cho's family. We are still different. I want to be same with her. But it is not. When we were young together,I always follow my mom and go to their Cho's family for celebration of CNY/Mooncake festival. But they often treated me differently. Because I'm not from their family. Afterall.


Although Im from Chan's family,but I never know them. I just go to visit them few times a year. And there are many differences between myself and the Chan's family.


Im thinking if I wanna go home. Where is my home. My only home is where my mother is. 


But even my mother doesn't know who I am. She would never understand or try to understand me. For me,she is a 40+ years old child. "Your age is not calculated by the years you lived, but with the hardships you faced with your head up and the dreams you tried to achieve" ~ M.Nusair


But seriously,I think the problem is myself. I never open my heart to anyone. So I doesn't blame them for not knowing what kind of person I am.


So,I belong to myself. I'd do what I want,what I like. No one can question me.

Going Home,Going Back to Studies~

It's time to go home...But still have a lot of problems that I need to face...

1st) Im thinking of going back to studies...Tenby in Ipoh is my first choice now...it's near,I can live in Gunung Rapat with my mom and dad...save on living expenses...18 months school fees around RM30K for A-levels and all fees I will have to depends on myself...Because if I study in KTAR in KL for A-levels also around the same amount if included living expenses and transport fees...Say I use RM300(rent a room)+RM300(for food)+RM200(entertainment) every month for the 18months = RM14400...and plus KTAR A-levels school fees RM14000 = RM28400 somemore plus bus fares to go back to Ipoh...so just let it be Tenby...

2nd) 2 years I left school I might be a little bit dumb and numb now....I am afraid that I can't catch up with all the fresh students from O-levels and SPM...So I need to be really hardworking...

3rd) Should I buy a second hand car when I got back? But this one I will have to discuss with my mom and dad first...

4th) Pocket money from parents...I will have to force them to at least give me RM600 pocket money each month...300 from mom and 300 from dad...If not I cant survive cuz I have my 100% school fees to afford...so I think they should bagi saya sikit sikit for support gua??

5th) My relatives...ahhh...this one is the most mafan one...what should I say to them when I got back?? Say :''hello...im finally back!!''...I think I will get into a lot of troubles when they ask me about my ''left house'' issue...I will ask them to ''leave me alone!!''...or ask them to ''let it go!!''...''that issue is past tense now''...''stop asking me why...ARRHH....''....

POLICE SAID HI TO ME INSIDE MY BEDROOM~

It's a long story but I thought I should write it down just in case next time I will forget about this cute experience...

Since I'm working here in the Restaurant Aurora,I live in their staff hostel since September 2010. I have a student Visa here and our boss do help us to pay tax,so we have nothing to worry about.No need to worry about the immigration officer(cause we have visa).No need to worry about tax officer(cause we are paying tax).Anyway the law states that foreign students that is holding the student visa is not suppose to work more than 20 hours per week.But I do work like 38 hours a week.But that's not a problem to worry about as long as if someone ask me about my working hour I'll just tell them I work part-time only(less than 20 hours). No one will bored enough to check our working hours.

Alright,clear about the law thing. How about other staffs? Some of them have student visa and are currently paying tax. But some of them have no visa,and passport is expired as well. Same like those Indonesians that work in Msia illegally. Illegal worker. If illegal worker is discovered when they are working then the company has to fine 10K Euro. Another law again.

Now only come to the first part of the story if you are clear about the law already. So the case is few months ago we received a letter at staffs hostel. It's been sent to a person named Ching X X. No one knows who he is. But it is from the garda ( meaning police,Irish called their police as Garda ). And it is court letter that asked this person to present at court at someday in January. My colleague asked another colleague to call the landlord and ask about what happen and settle this case. But in the end they never settle the case. So two weeks ago, two garda officer showed up at our front door in the morning(me and Martin was out that day). But because those colleagues that doesn't have visa afraid to open the door so the garda left in the end. Last week Garda came again,this time with a big lorry with cage(as seen in the movie,use to lock people up one) and finally someone opened the door. Those garda officer asked about the person Ching X X. But honestly really no one knows about that guy. But because the garda came for few times already and no one opens the door,they have a warrant this time ( means they are given rights to come into our house and check anytime they want and if no one opens the door,they'll break in),but in the end they left as well.

So here comes today morning. It was 8 o'clock,everyone's asleep. Suddenly the door bell rang and rang again for a few times. Martin was the one who open the door for the Garda. This time two officer came,one male and one female,and without the big cage already. The moment Martin opened the door the male officer asked him:''how many person live inside this house?'' and Martin immediately answered him 5. (actually have 8,but 3 out of them have no visa) . They never gave Martin any chance to inform everyone in the house,so all of the staffs were still sleeping.At first,Martin came into my room and ask me to call our boss,and he shoved his phone inside his pocket after the call reached(he wanted our boss to listen to the whole conversation between all of us and the officers). Then they started to check every room. Because my room is on the first floor so the first person they checked was me. The male officer came into my room and I thought it was Martin.( without my spectacles on I can hardly see someone's face clearly). Until he said :'' hi'' only I know he is not Martin. So he asked me a lot of questions but because I was very calm and erm,seriously I did nothing wrong so I was not afraid of him,so after he looked at my passport he left my room and went to check other rooms.

At the end the two officers found 7 persons (were to be 8 but one without visa was smart enough to sneak out of the house without anyone knowing where he had gone). Well so there were two without visa left found inside the house. At first,the male officer(actually he is a sergeant) knocked on their bedroom door and the two of them were too afraid to open the door. But Martin knew even if they don't open the door the sergeant will break the door somehow. So he asked the two hiding person to open the door. Then, they showed their passports and the sergeant saw one of their passport had expired. So he said he's going to keep their passports and hand them to the immigration office, and they will have to surrender in court by a stated date.

So they left in the end. Now the two without visa are worrying. There are a few solutions but they have to go to the court first and see what they can do. Either they can buy a flight ticket and have their passports back. And then they can keep working here and throw the flight ticket away. Because the reason of buying the flight ticket is to assure to the immigration that they will left Ireland. After they show their tickets,they can throw it away if they got their passports back because passports are their own belongings. Or either they can just go back Malaysia for holiday and come back again after one or two months. When they were back,they can renew their passports ( after the passport had been renewed no one will know u had been staying in Ireland illegally cause Ireland's customs are not like England. They're not so strict like England's.) Or either they can just leave their passports at the immigration office and not having it back again, but in that case they must not live in this address again cause when they don't show up in court someone will come to this house and check if they have left or what. If they still living in here and didn't show up in court and keep staying illegally maybe they will have to go to prison or something dunno lahhh...

So the end of story. Just to let someone like u that is interested in these things to know what's happening on Earth. I dunno lah,,,but such experience is quite precious for me.

Why do I cry less when I was young?

When I was 10 years old,I always feel proud because in the whole year's time I will never cry,not even once...no matter what happened...felt down and felt the pain,watched a touching movie ,argued with sisters...

Why do people cry less when they grow up...but I cry less while I was young?

Yesterday I cried a few times when I was watching the movie ''War Horse''...and my bf said I was funny...I don't think it's even that funny because even myself can't understand why I cry so much...all the time...I can feel the pain from my heart now....

And I cried again today...like I cry every single day...

When did I became this miserable Pinky? I doesn't know....

I only wish that I will never be able to grow up...and be 10 years old...always...cuz sorrow will slowly bother u while u are growing up...

There are so many uncertainty...doubt...pain...that I felt each day...I wish to get rid of all...