Goodbye is the hardest word to say...

I found out that the things that I always refuse to do is call my parents...I can't express my own feeling in facebook anymore cuz my family members have facebook accounts as well...so I can only talk about it here since there's not much frens that follow my blogspot...

It's X'mas so I have to call my parents...the moment I saw my mum on Skype I just keep enduring the tears...I forced my tears to go back...that time many frens are inside the house so I didn't wanna cry in front of them...I saw my mum and my sisters are so happy,sitting on the sofa,I can feel the warm to be at home...I wanna go home...

I planned to call my dad as well after calling my mum but I didn't...cuz I don't wanna suffer so much...I decided to call him when my emotion calms down...maybe tomorrow...or later...cuz the last thing I wanna do is talk to them...it's soooooooooooo hard...I miss them damn much...very very much...