I've never forget about the hope my parents gave me...And I won't disappoint them...I will,and must,study again,and back to school life...BUT,should I stay,or should I back to Msia for my future studies?? Im being miserable because of this problem that I haven't solve for about two years...It's been haunting me! I really hope someone(that doesn't involve)can give me some suggestion...Without a doubt,my parents' will suggest me to go home,and he will suggest me to stay...so I couldn't rely on their suggestion...I need someone that is wise,that could lead me to the correct desicion...
There are a lot of problems....
1st---One of my step-sister is going through her teenage...and she needs someone to help her,and guide her to be back to her studies,she's being so stupid lately...always mix with those ''bad'' students...so,BACK MSIA?
2nd---If I back MSIA,WHERE should I study? and WHAT,should I study? WHAT suits me? I doesn't know!
3rd---About my aim of living on EARTH...TO BE HAPPY,and I hope I could travel around the world someday...If I stay in Ireland,to travel one place in each year,I could fulfill my dream in no time...cause if I study,then work in Msia for the rest of my life...I bet I couldn't do that! I won't be able to afford a single flight ticket to London! Can't even think about travel AROUND the world??? so,STAY in Ireland??
4th---BUT if I stay in Ireland,WHAT should I do?? Should I continue my studies then?? Cuz It will costs me a fortune to study here!
OH GOD! HELP ME!
i dunno if my comment help at all...
ReplyDeletebut you know me.. always want to cakap banyak.. :D
I'll try not to tell you what to do, but instead just say something in my mind.
In life, we can never predict the future.. i think you know that already.. like we can plan out so many things.. but in the end, things happen that is out of our expectation.. for me, i thought i will do Mechanical Engineering for 4 years.. then come out work everything well planned.. but then i found out i am not happy, and i changed to Graphic Design and I am very happy now.. and the phase btwn my M.E. and G.D. i went to work and experience a lot of very valuable experience that money cannot buy.. so if you ask me now, i will say i never plan for all this to happen, but it did and despite it is good or bad experience, i still enjoyed it.. who knew that i will be restarting my degree at age 20? if you told my 17 yr old self i will laugh till die.. but life is like that.. its weird and unpredictable..
So i think is, you don't predict your future... you can never do that.. just live one day at a time.. live will happen by itself, and if you live happily everyday.. then in the end, no matter what happen, you are still happy and with no regrets..
it is possible to have long term goals and at the same time be happy at where you are currently.. but dun put so much worry on your future.. because really what matters is today.. we can only live and experience one day at a time..
You can call me selfish, but I cannot live my life for someone else.. my life is my life, I will live it the way i want, bcz i know if i live the way i want i will be happy. I wun let other ppl's life disturb mine.. you can call me selfish, i dunno but its the way i live it. I can only do so much for other people, but the end of the day it is still my life. Other people can live the way they want to.. and i wun disturb them..
So, i cannot say i fully understand your feelings now.. but i'm sure you are very confused and worried... all these are part of life... follow your heart.
shut up la leong kit.. bye. =D good luck!
Im REALLY appreciate ur advice,my fren.Thanks for reminding me of which is important...I guess I know what should I do now...THAAAAAAAANNNNNNKKKKKKSSSSSSSSSS!!!
ReplyDeleteI will back to Msia on April next year,together with my sister and her sons(I will back no matter to study here or Msia,cuz it's been two years,I MUST meet my dad and all)...So meet u that time ok?? haha...I really miss the food...
sure no problem. But i already settled in KL.. so if you back in Ipoh maybe no chance meet.. maybe if u visit KL then we can go yum cha :)
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