The day before spring (nin 30 man)

Yesterday is the day b4 spring...the weather is super hot....
But quite happy last night cuz won a lot of money when gamble...
I played flash big 2 wif cousins...then RM0.10 per card...
I also won about RM10...I wonder how if we play RM1...
Actually Daniel had suggested to play RM1 but then we refused...
Cuz ....dun wanna open the angpau yet lorrr...
Will feel guilty if so fast open and use those money...T.T
But now,regret lorr...shud hav support his suggestion...
If not,now I hav RM100 already lorr if RM1 per card...
Last night I was the biggest winner and Ian is the second winner...
I wonder is it because me n Ian wore red shirt leh??
Cuz Jiji wore a blue shirt and Daniel wore a yellow shirt...
Jiji and Daniel keep lose money and grabbed money from wallet...
Till wallet also no money dy...Daniel forced to beg grandpa...
To support his bet...haha...
And they suspect I wear red underwear...
Then I str8 away say I wear grey lorr...
And say :" if dun blif,now I can let u see."
Already touch the zip lor,then they say :" EEee...dun wan..."
Haha,funny lor them...
But then oways also flash big 2,feel very sien already lorrr...
Shud hav try to play poker but we dun hav chips...

This is the first thing I feel happy during CNY 2010...
And 2day second good things happened to me...

I slept when 3.30 last night...and today morning forced to wake up...
When 9 sumtin in the morning...
Cuz dad wanted to bring me,my sis and babies to visit his frens...
So,we went to Man Lei Mong....
And then visit the Uncle Cucumber head...(I dunno his real name)
(But everyone is calling him Cucumber head)
(Cuz his head looks like cucumber....)
(But dun misund,dun hav stripes and green colour la of coz!)
And then his wife pandai cook the CHOI GEOK...
When I first taste the CHOI GEOK,felt very happy...
Tears also almost wanna come out from my eyes dy...
I think,almost one year edy I dun hav eat such a delicious CHOI GEOK...
+ this CHOI GEOK,really is splendid...AMMMAAZZIINNNGGG!!

Then after eat,we chatted wif uncle and his children...
I heard one of his son likes to play online game...
And his daughter got 6A's in SPM and she took 10 subjects...
After that my dad say I must not lose to her if not he NO FACE...
OMG...PRESSURE+STRESS+TENSION!!
I hav no idea what will my result LOOKS LIKE...
Cuz,I really didn't force myself to study b4 exam...
Just hav study a little bit...and....well...worrying my result now..
But I shud not worry about it...Cuz it's already passed...
And if I got a bad result I will just diam diam lorr...
I dun wanna care other's comments already...
Cuz Chan's family sure many comments one la...
All also like to gossip one lorr...f3f3
And compare results with their own children ahhh...
Some kinda things la...lol...

Now I gotta count those angpau money...hehe...
Today run here run there,althou very tired but hav a bit PAYBACK...
Got almost 10 angpau bah... =)

Another sleepless night...

I dunno why my room dun hav aircon...
My dad shud hav PROVIDE an aircon for me...
Cuz these days weather getting hotter n hotter...
I wanna slp but too hot...
Sumo listen to love songs now...
Just cant stop...MLTR-That's why...

"I won't forget,the way...ur kissing...
The feeling's so strong...were lasting for so long...
But I'm not the man,ur heart...is missing...
Thats why u go...away I know..."

VERY HOT AHH~ HELP ME....
I already open all the window althou will hav mosquitoes...
But dun k anymore...
And I took another MIDNIGHT-shower...
Still feel hot...I hope it'll rain now...huhu...

25 minutes...Nope...already few hours...
And still in the bad mood...
Thinking of nonsence...
Having strange feelings...
Gotta figure out somethin...
But my mind is already full of question marks>>???????
What I will do??
What I hav to do??
What I need to do??
What I must do??
What I should do??
What I should not do??
Why am I doing this??
Why am I even think about it??

25 minutes-MLTR

"After some time,I've finally made up my mind...
She is the girl,and I really wan to make her mine...
Im searching everywhere...
To find her again...To tell her I love her...
And Im sorry bout the things I've done...
I find her standing,in front of the church...
The only place in town where I didn't search...
She looked so happy,in her wedding dress...
But she cried while she was saying this....

Boy,I've missed ur kisses...
All the time but this is...
Twenty five minutes too late...
Though U've traveled so far,
Boy,Im sorry u are...
Twenty-five minutes too late..."

I am so confuse...a lot of questions pop out...
Shud I shut them down??
Like u click X when u see pop-ups??
It's not so easy right??
I shud sleep now...it's already 03:24...
We shud look forward,and wait patiently...
And enjoy what we hav now...
Nervous and worry is useless....right??

Backstreet Boys-I'll never break ur heart...
After this song,I gotta sleep...

Good night...

Bak Kut Teh

Seriously,I hate bak kut teh cuz I dun like the pork smell...
It stinks...but then yesterday I had Bak Kut Teh lunch n dinner...

I went to my aunt's house to help bake pineapple tart...
AGAIN...
Reli quite frustrated when u keep doing the same thing for whole day...
Like me,keep roll the pineapple jam for few hours...
But I like the most that time is the Bak Kut Teh lunch + dinner...
My aunt had separated the pork with the soup...
So that I can drink the soup,w/o lookin at those disgusting pork...
And hav Yao Zha Guai to dip sumo...haha...nice...
Feel very happy when I can eat sumtin nice when tired...

My aunt told me bak kut teh is quite HOT cuz it's herbs...
Finally,today when I woke up...my eyes swollen edi cuz YIT HEI...zzz

Supper's fault

Althou Im very thin but I eat a lottttttttttt....
And last time I oways need to hav supper at around 12am...
These days,or mayb these few months I seldom hav supper edi...
Cuz it's bad for our digestion system...
Sumo I oways stomachache one,and gastric...
So I seldom eat supper edy...
Last night I ate a plate of very spicy mee goreng...
And also spicy seaweed...(I juz cant control my mouth!)
At around 1am...walao...

Today morning,when I woke up...Str8 feel gastric...
The feeling is like,u need to eat sumtin PURE...
And I hav some choices..
1)Laksa...zzz
2)My sis's birthday cake
3)Chicken rice...which is oily..
4)Magi Mee...

And finally I've chosen the right one...
Which is Magi mee...zzz...
But then it's vege flavour one la...not spicy one...
And after eat edi I go clean up my room...
Look at those dust all day...until fall in love wif dust dy...
Now very very satisfy cuz finally,my room is clean!!
Used to hav a lot of hairs on the floor...(cuz i got hairfall prob)
But now it's empty...even can kiss the floor dy...haha..

Evening that time went out yumcha wif frens...
Cuz wanna go visit the new Old Town Kopitiam...
At hillcity-la there that one...
After yumcha,back home TOILET again...
Uh,,,I dun wanna say those GELI things dy...
Cuz scare ltr my com also wanna vomit...
Anyway,just wanna stop having supper...forever...
But...our heart and soul is oways having diff opinions with mind...
Zzzzzzzz...just cant control them both!!
When think about those chicken wings...roti canai...
Burger.............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
Im happy cuz Im in Ipoh now...the food heaven...zzz

B4 CNY...

Yesterday I argued with my sister just because of those GREEN BEAN problems...
Small problems also wanna argue...
I felt very hard to control my temper edy lorr...
Cuz now almost CNY dy,hav to gotong royong clean up the house..
But then we cant do it in one day cuz Avi n Vinni...
So we need to do it slowly,everyday one room lik that...
Aiya I also dun wanna say edy la...
Cuz actually this is also a Green Bean for me now...
I juz feel very guilty cuz I screamed...and shouted...
And today is her birthday tim...
Mayb Im havin some kinda personality disorder??
Oways will suddenly bcum crazy...??
How to control my temper leh...haizzz...

Today morning we went out Hillcity there DIM SUM...
Cuz she bday mah...must eat nice a bit lorrr...
And that time we already dun hav argue and back to normal edy...SWT!
It's useless to angry and argue...
Cuz after one day lidet then gone edi those memories...
And we're livin in same house,so we cannot everyday FACE LEFT LEFT...
Meaning=MIN JOR JOR...haha...psps my English not so gud...swtswt...
Oh ya and because last night I argued with her...
I nvr had my dinner last night!!!
And when midnight forced to go steal bread...zzz...
That time really very regret lorr...haha...
Reli funny one la me...soh poh...

These days also very busy prepare for CNY...
Those L.O.V.E. probs...just put it beside first lorr
Cuz now IT'S COMPLICATED edi...haixxx...
I reli dun wanna go FAN a lot lorr...
As long as I'm happy with what I got now...
I also dun wanna go care other things edi...
So,end the love topic...

This whole afternoon I helped my grandma to make...
Erm...that is a kind of biscuit called 蛋散...
Mayb u all dunno cuz It's a RARE biscuit...LOL...
After few hours,walao!!
My backbone...macam cannot str8 edy lo...cuz bent down too long time!!
And then very tired after busy for few hours....
And forgot to drink water and hav lunch bcuz make till gila gila dy..
U kno what,actually make cookies/biscuits also need a lot of time...
And a lot of KUNG FU...
So,I finally kno why those ppl sell cookies for RM15++ nowadays...
Actually the ingredients all also very cheap only except sugar la..
Erm...a pack of flour,eggs,pork oils,cooking oils,and sugar...
Thats all edi...but sell for RM15++...zzzzz...
And then last week I went to help my auntie make cookies also...
Pineapple tarts and Almond cookies...
Almond cookies very easy to make but...uh...the pineapple...
VERY VERY HARD!!
Almond cookies=almond,flour,eggs,1 ACS butter,some chocolate chips then done dy...
Pineapple tarts=flour,eggs,butter,pineapple jam...

I heard my aunt said the butter costs RM8++...
And if u buy those cookies at pasar malam those shops...
They wont use these kind of good quality butter...
They only use those Planta or what else those lorr...
But I quite happy cuz learned a lot of things last week...

Feel very much into those cookies now...
Haha....

I've read a book

I've finish reading a book titled 再苦也要去旅行。。。
The writer is a Malaysian Chinese girl which I think is about 28-30 years old...
She started travel to other countries from 2001 until now...
Her style of travelling is the much pity one...
which is like a beggar...sleep on the road sometimes...
And hav to face a lot of problem because not having much money...
And the most important thing is she travels ALONE...

It seems cool to travel lidet,can meet a lot of foreign frens...
But there's alwiz hav a lot of obstacles...
No matter what is ur dream...there's oways obstacles waiting for u...
There's oways hav a lot of challenges in life...
That's life...isn't it??

We can avoid obstacles by not having the best...
But,to get the best,u must go thru every hard obstacles...
Everything is fair on Earth...

Confucius...

Lately I felt very confuse about my future....
I dunno which way to go...
And dunno shud listen to which suggestion...
There're some choices here for me...as shown below:

1)Study form 6 in SMI and go penang USM after that
-My uncle's suggestion
-Save money
-But waste time
-Stay in this house
-But Pn.Zumeme always tell us shouldn't study form6
-Control by parents and sister
-Everyone will agree that I follow this plan

2)Study UTAR until finish degree
-Will rent a house in Kampar
-Hav freedom
-But quite expensive
-All ppl will blame me cuz waste my dad's money
-Quite dangerous cuz Kampar got a lot Indon ppl
-Sonkoi will not let me cuz dangerous to stay there
-But parents and sister will agree

3)Go to Ireland earn money for 2 years then go Australia study
-I can study in Aus with my own money
-Can be with Sonkoi,and earn double money cuz 2 person
-His sisters will take k me cuz me n him will live with them
-We will b legal worker cuz can get student visa
-Will be rich soon,cuz we got car n house,we no need pay for anythin
-I can help my mom to pay her house loan
-If I can afford to pay house loan,she can back Msia
-No need to rely on anyone else to pay for my studies
-But this plan,parents,relatives and sister wont agree


Actually I think 3rd plan is the best plan...cuz not everyone can work in Europe unless u got fren or family over there and they can help u to make Visa,and can find a good job for u...Sonkoi already asked his sisters,and I met his sisters before...all his sisters are very friendly and they said willing to help me to work in Ireland...And I'll be a waitress there,juz serve the customers and pick up the phone sometimes...I am not afraid it's hard...Because if I dunno how to do something,I will ask ppl and learn although ppl scold me or what...I never worry about that because I juz wanna earn some money...I dun wanna rely on my family anymore...They're already so poor...Then,those waitress job in Ireland,at least 250 Euro per week(food provided)...means 1000Euro per month...1000 Euro = RM5000...I pay RM1000 for my mom's house loan every month,I still got RM4000...I wan my mom to come back Msia and take care my 2 sisters...I dun wan my sisters live under other ppl's roof...and I dun wan them to be naughty...thats why need my mom come back to take care and control them...

Okay lets count,based on Sonkoi's information...
When I first get there,I'll need to hav 1800Euro to make student Visa...
Juz to confirm that I'm not illegal worker...and safe...
This 1800Euro,his sisters will lend me first...
And if I hav financial problem,Sonkoi will help...
Then,I'll live with Sonkoi in one room(dun think other thing ya...LOL)
And the room is 300 Euro per month...
Me give 150 and Sonkoi give 150...hehe...save money right??
And that house got 3 rooms...One if for us...One is for 4th sis...
And the last one is for 3rd sis...
This house one month rent 900Euro...
Thats why each room need 300 Euro...
Then,we got house,and Sonkoi's sisters already got car there...
So house and transport problem already settle...

Then,how about job...??
Sonkoi's sisters will also help me to find job...
Cuz they hav lottssssss of frens there in Ireland...
So can easily find a good job for me...
And if possible,can work together with Sonkoi... =)
Furthermore,if I work for few months already I hav experience...
Then I can find a higher salary job...
We actually no need to use many money...
Cuz those things there are really cheap for example...
Those Nike t-shirt there jus 4-6 Euro each...
And those food,for example a chicken...only 5 Euro...
So...we can save a lot of money for my studies... ^^

Ok,lets say 1000Euro per month...x 12 = 12000 Euro
12000 Euro minus (rent house+student visa)
12000 - (150 x 12) - (1800)
12000 - 1800 - 1800 = 8400 Euro
Every month give my mom house loan 1000RM...
RM1000 x 12 = RM12000/5 = 2400Euro
8400 Euro - 2400 Euro = 6000 Euro
Lets say makan and use those thing 2000 Euro la...
(If I jimat a bit...)
6000 - 2000 = 4000...
4000 Euro x 5 = RM20000...
Saya ada 20k,Sonkoi ada 20k...
Together is 40k per year we can save...
And I havent count IF I GOT HIGHER SALARY ooo...haha...
LOZZZZZZZZZZ of money...

But this is just a dream,I wish my family will support me...
And respect my decision...
I will try to discuss with them...
But I kno they'll sure disagree...
I've already decided...If they dun let me to go Ireland...
I'll just book a flight and fly to Ireland...
When I got money and get a degree in Aus...
They will diam diam...I can use money to close their mouth...
I hav good reasons...

1) I wan my mom to back MSIA...
2)I wanna be resposible for my own studies...
3)I wanna be with Sonkoi
4)I dun wanna stay at home like a bug,always eat their money
5)I wanna study overseas
6)I wanna be free
7)I wanna try to depends on myself
8)I wanna challenge myself

After I saw one of my fren's post...I hav more confident...
She said one pro person said :
"因为我肯拼所以被肯定，我所付出的一切都是值得的"

听了这番话令到我更肯定我要做的事...
只要我肯拼,我肯付出,我肯放下现在所有的一切...
我相信不久的将来他们一定会认同我...
虽然现在他们不明白我,不赞成我...
但是我会慢慢证明给他们看我的决定是对的...
到底是人定胜天,还是命运早有安排??
就要看我自己的毅力了...

I will prove to them that my decision is correct...