NONONO MISERY!

Im here again.

I changed into another person.

I realized that being miserable/emo, is so damn tiring. So I try to make myself happy. By watching Ryan Higa ( for example). And try not to think so much.

I got to know some different people by going to KL last week, and also in Barroom, when I went clubbing with my sister.

I got humiliated when I was in Muar last week. Maybe that's only because I am sensitive. I was with another 3 friends from Taylor's College. And they were all rich people la, and we went to dinner with a bunch of rich uncles in a restaurant, about 15 uncles. One of the uncle named Mr.Goh kept asking us about our study plan. Erm, he asked 3 of my friends before he asked me. One said going to UK , another one said going to Bristol, another one said going twinning and all.

Mr.Goh:'' How about u? Going abroad?''
Me:'' Im staying local.''
'' Which uni?''
'' Erm, I don't think you've ever heard about it before. It's called the Olympia College.''
'' Where about?''
'' In Ipoh one, but they have campus in KL also.'' ( I felt my ears and neck are burning, I know he didn't mean to, but I felt ashamed when comparing with the 3 friends above)
'' Where the cert from?''  (Fuck, still wanna ask so many mehhhhh...)
'' Erm, London one.''
'' Which one?''
'' East London.''

Conversation ended with awkwardness filling the air and I felt like crying.

So after a while on our way back to KL, 3 of them were saying how awkward they felt when chatting with those uncles. I know they were just saying this to make me feel better.

I understand that I am so different from 3 of them. It's a privilege to know them and be able to follow them to this wonderful trip to Muar, and be treated like a princess, did not even spend a single penny in those 3 days. It's like a dream to me. I was very very happy. So at last, I successfully made myself forget about the bitterness I felt earlier. It's worth it. I was humiliated, but nvm, I got to know these awesome friends, from a totally different world.

Nothing matters to me now. Yes, I don't have a father that owns lands of palm trees. Yes, I am not a hardworking student that can get scholarship to study abroad. Yes, I have a lower social status. BUT HELL YEAH, I'M ON THE TOP OF THE WORLD! SO WHAT ABOUT MY COLLEGE?