Why do I cry less when I was young?

When I was 10 years old,I always feel proud because in the whole year's time I will never cry,not even once...no matter what happened...felt down and felt the pain,watched a touching movie ,argued with sisters...

Why do people cry less when they grow up...but I cry less while I was young?

Yesterday I cried a few times when I was watching the movie ''War Horse''...and my bf said I was funny...I don't think it's even that funny because even myself can't understand why I cry so much...all the time...I can feel the pain from my heart now....

And I cried again today...like I cry every single day...

When did I became this miserable Pinky? I doesn't know....

I only wish that I will never be able to grow up...and be 10 years old...always...cuz sorrow will slowly bother u while u are growing up...

There are so many uncertainty...doubt...pain...that I felt each day...I wish to get rid of all...